Athlete Journal: Julie Warren, Entry 16 – Holding Myself Captive

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By Julie Warren, Entry 15

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I feel when I’m with my family. Sometimes it’s like they’re watching me from behind their closed doors while I’m out there living life. They don’t see what goes on inside my head or hear everything that goes on in my heart but they do see and hear all the things that go wrong and sometimes even good things happen too.

So today I want to share with you some of those moments because I think they really are special.

When my mom died last year, it was just one day after she had been battling cancer for years. She wasn’t sick anymore and her body was shutting down. Her spirit lived on though and she still made sure to spend every moment with us before passing away.

My dad passed away a few months later. He had been diagnosed with prostate cancer at age 50 and he fought it off for several years before finally dying of the disease in his sleep. When he did, I remember crying uncontrollably for days afterwards.

I didn’t cry over him physically, but rather emotionally because I felt so helpless and sad that something like this could happen to someone I loved so much.

And then yesterday…today…today again….

My sister. My wonderful, beautiful sister who was so full of life and loved by so many… She had been on a trip with some friends at the Grand Canyon. It was a long way down and a long way to the bottom.

Her body was found along with two others who had fallen over the side of that magnificent chasm. Apparently there wasn’t anything that could be done…

I can’t stop crying.

I keep asking myself why? Why her? Why now? Why me?

Oh God…I can’t believe she’s gone.

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A/N: Now I think about it, the worst thing that has happened to me isn’t a tragedy or anything close to being devastating to anyone else. But it is something that still hurts. My mom died when I was 15 and my dad just last year.

They were both very important people in my life and I miss them every day.

So I guess you don’t need to have experienced world-shaking loss to feel what the other side is like. Just remember that you’re not alone in your grief and help is always yours for the asking.

Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read this folks.

You’ve got my permission to hug your loved ones a little tighter tonight. I sure will be doing the same. Thanks, again.

Catch you on the flip side…

Bye for now,


You’ve caught the travel bug and decide to make your first trip to Disney World. You haven’t been yet, but always thought it would be fun to go since you used to watch the Wonderful World of Disney on TV with your mom on Saturday nights. (Your family didn’t have a lot of money so you couldn’t ever go when you were little.

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Sad, but true.)

Granted you’ll probably be going alone since it isn’t exactly a hot destination for teenage boys, but what the heck, right?

You’ve got the time and money so you go ahead and book your flight, hotel, park tickets and rental car.

You leave early Wednesday morning from Eppley Airfield. You arrive at Orlando International Airport mid-afternoon and pick up your rental car. You get directions to your hotel and head off.

You get to the hotel, unpack and head off to the Magic Kingdom since you’re determined to make the most of this trip.

You have a great time! You ride all the rides you want to and see all the shows and exhibits. You buy souvenirs for your family and friends, have lots of snacks and just enjoy yourself.

You stay at the park for the fireworks show and leave slightly after midnight. (You’re too tired to make it to the whole night spectacular).

You drive back to the hotel listening to music and thinking about how much fun you had. You can’t wait to tell your friends and family all about it when you get back.

When you get there, you set the alarm on your phone and fall right to sleep.

You wake up at 6am, take a quick shower and check out of the hotel. You’ve got just enough time to grab something to eat before checking your car into the airport parking garage. After dropping off the car, you run through the airport looking for your terminal.

You make it with five minutes to spare.

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You board the plane for the short flight to Kansas City. (The first leg of your trip home is on a different airline). You settle in and once again fall asleep as soon as the plane takes off.

You arrive in KC feeling refreshed and make the last leg of your trip home.

All in all, it was a fun trip! You’ve got some great pictures and videos to show everyone. You’ll have plenty of stories to tell as well.

You’re glad you got the chance to go and do this.

You are now ready to move on in your life and put college in the past. You know you will enjoy your new life as a working stiff.

You’re ready for anything!

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Foreign captives warned not to try escaping Iraq by SM Dooling – 2013 –

Encyclopedia of rape by B PUNSALAN –

The End of Amateurism in American Track and Field by MD Smith – 2004 –

Washburn Alumni Magazine, Summer 2006 by JM Turrini – 2010 –

Our musicals, ourselves: a social history of the American musical theatre by Washburn University Alumni Association – 2014 –