The Fitness Existentialist: It Starts With You
Existence is a constant struggle between what you want and what your body needs. Your life is always changing and evolving. That’s why it makes sense to live according to your values, even if they are not necessarily the most popular ones.
If you don’t have any values at all, then how can you ever hope to achieve anything?
If you’re like me, you probably feel a little lost sometimes. There are so many things going on in your life right now that it’s hard to keep track of everything. Sometimes I wonder if there isn’t something better out there… but then again maybe I’m just looking for excuses to stay stuck in my rut!
I’ve been struggling with being an introvert since middle school, when I was still living at home with my mom. I never really fit in anywhere, let alone social circles. Even though I tried to make friends, I didn’t get very far because I had no real interests or hobbies other than playing video games all day long.
(And drinking beer.)
In high school, things started getting worse. My grades suffered due to my lack of interest in classes and activities. I never knew what I was going to do after graduation.
College never really appealed to me, which only left me with barely any opportunities to succeed in life. I started drinking a bit more and getting into trouble with the law. After my mom kicked me out of the house, I ended up getting arrested and going to jail for domestic violence.
After a few months in prison, I realized that this wasn’t the life for me. I didn’t want to be seen as a criminal for the rest of my life. I needed to make a change if I wanted to succeed in life.
So, after I got out, I started giving fitness a try. Since my body was in pretty good shape already from years of playing sports as a kid, it wasn’t too difficult for me to excel.
But there was still one problem: my mind. I always felt like I was lacking in motivation. It was getting frustrating trying to find something that could spark my interest, but nothing seemed to work.
No matter what I tried to do, it never lasted very long because I just didn’t care enough to stick with it.
That’s when I started reading about the benefits of meditation and how it can help with anxiety and stress. I found a free program online and started getting into that. It actually started to help and I felt a sense of calmness after doing it consistently for a few weeks.
Then something weird started happening. Without me even realizing it at first, my mind was becoming more and more open to new experiences. I found myself trying new foods, listening to new types of music, and even reading new books that I never thought I would ever be interested in before.
For the first time in a long time, I was experiencing genuine happiness. I didn’t know what was causing it at first, so I did a little digging and that’s when I came across a book called “The Secret.” It explains the concept of “vibing” with people, which is basically when you are really getting in sync with another person on many different levels.
The more you vibe with someone, the more likely you are to experience extreme happiness around them.
It was all starting to make sense to me now. I had been vibing with this girl for a few weeks now through our messages. Our personalities were clearly compatible and our conversations had that natural flow to them.
It was time to make my move. I took all of my savings out of the bank and bought a ticket to meet her in person. We were going to spend five whole days together in the beautiful city of Paris.
The day finally came and I was on the plane. I still didn’t know what she really looked like, but that didn’t even matter to me because I was just so excited to finally meet her in person. I was nervous as hell of course, but also filled with extreme anticipation.
After getting to the hotel and unpacking, I turned on my phone and saw that I had missed a call and had a voicemail from her. Somehow my phone had been set to away mode for the entire flight over here, so I had no idea that she had tried to contact me.
As I played back the voicemail, my heart started beating rapidly. I could hardly contain myself after listening to it.
“Hey Sebastian, it’s me…um…I can’t do this.
We only talked online and on the phone. I don’t even know you. This is a bad idea. I’m sorry.”
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