The Story of the Endomorph: How to Work With What You Have
It’s time to work with what you have!
You’re probably wondering why I’m writing this post instead of just going out and getting a job. Well, it all started when my friend told me she was pregnant. At first I thought it was some sort of joke because I knew how difficult it is to get pregnant in your 20s. But then I learned that she wasn’t using any form of birth control and that her period had been irregular since the beginning of August.
She was having unprotected unprotected fun. So I decided to go out and get myself tested.
I went to Planned Parenthood and they didn’t even ask me if I wanted to get tested for STDs or anything like that. I guess they knew. It took me 2 hours to wait in line and it was worth it when I found out what my situation was.
I was STD free, but pregnancy positive.
The baby wasn’t planned and I immediately had mixed feelings about it. I never thought I’d be a mom since I was only 19 years old and my career was just getting started. I was always a straight-A student in school and I dreamed of becoming a successful journalist.
How could I do that if I had a baby?
I took the next 6 months to research, read books, and think about my situation. After careful planning, I decided to keep the baby. I knew it would be expensive to raise a child but I just couldn’t put it up for adoption… I don’t know why, I just couldn’t. I began applying to different jobs to get health insurance and saved up all the money I could.
I didn’t tell many people that I was pregnant until my 5th month because I know the risks of losing the child. I kept waiting for something bad to happen and it never did. I enjoyed being pregnant, even though it wasn’t easy as I got bigger. I didn’t have many morning sickness or anything like that.
I had a pretty easy labor and delivery. I pushed my son out in only 2 hours and didn’t tear too much. I had a great support system and was constantly told how great of a job I was doing. My mom, boyfriend, and his parents were all very supportive.
The only person who wasn’t happy about the situation was me. I felt lonely and isolated. I didn’t have many friends to begin with and keeping a long distance relationship was difficult.
I decided it would be best for me and my son if I moved back in with my parents while I looked for a job. The problem is that I’m not really a people person and I had trouble keeping a job. Every place I worked at ended up laying people off or closing the store down within the year.
Sources & references used in this article:
Negotiating the male body: Men, masculinity, and cultural ideals by C Wienke – The Journal of Men’s Studies, 1998 – journals.sagepub.com
Socialization of the physical attractiveness stereotype: Parental expectations and verbal behaviors by GR Adams, M Hicken, M Salehi – International Journal of …, 1988 – Taylor & Francis
Obesity and women—II. A neglected feminist topic by OW Wooley, SC Wooley, SR Dyrenforth – Women’s Studies International …, 1979 – Elsevier